I often hit Monday and just hit a blank. I’ve got zero motivation or interest. My mind is blah. I sit and stare at my screen, moving between social media, news websites and emails mindlessly numbing myself to look busy throughout the day.

I go into the weekly management meeting pretty much a mute. I sit there hoping that I don’t need to be involved. Hoping I don’t get any questions.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

Am I just completely de-motivated by my job? If I was building my own company or doing my own thing would I be more passionate?

Or is just because I wrecked myself on Friday and Saturday night?

I don’t think it’s the weekend. It’s bigger than that. It’s the fucking mess of a working life I’ve got myself into. I hate working for my old man.